Sunday, December 21, 2014

Hanya doa

Pengharapan itu mbuahkan kekecewaan

Kepercayaan itu mengambil masa untuk dkembalikan

Hanya doa yg mampu dikirimkan

Ya hati ini maseh sakit dan suram

Bahagia itu lebih bermakna kini berbanding sebelum

Moga Allah sentiasa memelihara dirimu,
Semoga Allah jauhkan engkau drpd godaan syaitan, godaan manusia dan godaan dunia
Moga Allah bukak semula hatimu untuk terus tunduk djalanNya
Moga Allah pelihara hatimu drpd dosa yang engkau sedar
Moga Allah tunjukkn dirimu jalan yang benar
Moga Allah ampunkan dosa-dosamu
Moga Allah terima ibadahmu
Moga Allah sentiasa bersamamu
Moga Allah hadirkn kesedaran dlm hatimu

Aminn aminn aminn..

Hidup aku kini lebih indah
Moga Allah temukan juga keindahan yg aku rasakan kini padamu
Agar engkau juga mngerti
Mengapa aku lebih pilih Dia drpd cinta manusia


Thursday, December 11, 2014

The Perk of Zalikha's Life

Ollaaaa! Assalamualaikum ^_^

Heeeeee..What's up? How's life? Apa khabar iman? May Allah ease Aminn..
Alhamdulillah we reached December n in few weeks we'll be entering 2015!! InsyaAllah :)
"I'm feeling 22~~" Hahaha..

Basically, Alhamdulillah I am, I mean WE ARE now a 1st year medical students in MSU n SubhanAllah, up till today, I still can't believe we reached this stage already. If you know our stories, u'll understand the challenges we faced to be here.

We enrolled on 22nd September 2014. Even the registration was challenging itself. Since it was in the middle of the month, we had some problems to look for fund to pay the registration fee, house to rent, money to pay 3-months deposit and other things to be bought. But Alhamdulillah everything has settled down and we're now in a great condition.

It has been about 3 months and I'm still adapting myself to medicine life. We had just finished with Progress Test 1, comprising Fundamental module and musculoskeletal module. And we're currently in haemopoietic and lymphatic system module. Study is not that easy but fortunately, not that hard. I often hear people saying medical students have no life, but nahhh.. I proved them wrong.

I joined many activities, during my free time, weekends and holidays. I joined dissection team (there's no dissecting session in usual class or in the syllabus, so this is after class), dissecting cadaver till midnight and Alhamdulillah I can study better that way. I joined circumcision event and watched the real thing and learned them in the best way SubhanAllah. I even had the opportunity to volunteer in many other events. At heart, I'm living my life to the fullest, not forgetting my responsibility for akhirat Alhamdulillah.

Owh I would like to take this opportunity to wished two of the best people in my life, the Pak Shazalis' children, Mohd Dzulkarnain Shazali and Nur Syahirah Shazali (they're not siblings, their dads happened to have the same name and they are both my BESTFRIENDS!) for their graduation day on 8-9/12/14 at UiTM Kota Samarahan. All your hard works are paid off and all the best in pursuing your degree! :)

I'm just a weak servant of Him. And for everything He had given to me, I just can't be happier to be blessed and guided all the way Alhamdulillah. People can say it's just the starting and I haven't see the real challenges in this field, but InsyaAllah I'm well prepared and will keep preparing myself. Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah, may Allah bless may Allah show us the right way and may Allah guide us till the end Aminn..


Tuesday, September 9, 2014

Bahagiaaa.. itu bukan segalanyaaa~~

Lamoss gilosss xupdate blog teehee..

Yup, that's me currently, Alhamdulillah :)
Sejujurnya sangat bahagia Alhamdulillah dgn kasih sayang dan rahmat yang Allah kurniakan tanpa henti
Bahagia dengan cinta halal dari mak bapak, siblings, family, bestfriends, closefriends The Kamboh haha and everyone around me Alhamdulillah..

I used to believe that one love from that 'one person' is sufficient and sweet.
I used to believe that one love from that 'one person' will lift me higher and better.
Yes I did Alhamdulillah but I still think that something is wrong..
So Allah test me and show me that one love from Him The Almighty is the one I've been looking for!

We can simply say "I love u for the sake of Allah"
But we always fail to understand it, to show it and to do it!
Facing the ups and down in the challenges, Alhamdulillah Allah show me the way,
Alhamdulillah that He didn't let me wonder alone on my own :)
And I come to realise that, loving people for the sake of Allah is to love till we meet in Jannah Aminn.

Until we meet in Jannah..
That's simply means, loving people that will always reminds us of Allah
loving people that will always makes us be proud of being a Muslim
loving people that will always reminds us about our duty as a Muslim
loving people that will always makes us do good things
loving people that will always makes us avoid doing sins and things forbidden
loving people that will always makes us miss Rasulullah
loving people that will always makes us to yearn for Jannah more and more every single day!!

So I've widen my point of view,
"To love sumone is not only to love that 'one person'
But to love every single person that Allah put in our pathway of life"
Everyone around us has their own reasons and responsibilities
There's reasons why they're here, There's reasons why we meet them and There's reasons why we get to know them :)
And once their responsibilities is done, they'll be gone.
Thus, appreciate people while they're still with you :)

Life is about what you give! So treat others as how you would like to be treated :)
Never expect! Expectation leads to frustration.
Ikhlas in everything you do, never ask for rewards.
Instead, pray that Allah accept all of our good deeds as ibadah Aminn..

Jum sama2 berbahagia ^_^


Sunday, June 1, 2014

Because every prayer counts..


Alohaaa.. It's me again, after changing my blog into private mode, I am now back!

I just can't stand holding 'this' in alone.
It's not that I dont hv anyone to talk to, but I prefer posting it to anonymous or anyone who'll not be seeing me cry talking bout this.

Something happened, exactly a month ago, 1/5/14 about at the same time as now, 9.54pm and it broke my heart :'(
Very it gave a big humongous hole in me :"( VERY BIG AND IT HURTS
It's like my whole dream crashed, boomed and just name anything exploding :'(
My whole plans on how I wish to spend my life...Allahuakbar..I just cant continue my life :'(

Yes I was in pain, SO MUCH IN PAIN, even crying make it worst..
I cant share it to anyone, no one could understand and telling others would only makes them question me lots and lots of questions that even my ownself cant answer :"(

I felt like shouting, crying my whole heart out, shutting myself in my room, sleeping whenever I can, hoping not to wake up anymore :'(
YES, i lost my hope to stay alive :'(
I felt like killing myself n DIE!
Gone from this world, from everyone..

But, but, but..Alhamdulillah, I hv Allah :'(
He made me strong, He gave me directions, whenever I read Quran, almost all verses are meant for me :'(
Whenever I go facebook-ing, every posts seems comforting me,
When I go twitter-ing, all tweets touched my small heart
Allahurabbi, He's the sweetest love of all :'(

And today, it marks one month after that incident :'(
Physically Im ok, but internally Im still weak, still vulnerable and still lost
But, I've never stop gathering strength and faith
Despite they're fragile and may broke anytime, Im still gathering them from every piece of me
Dont worry, I know Im being tested, and trust me I never blame Allah
In fact, this thing makes me closer to Allah MasyaAllah

Reason Im posting this?
As told above, just to let things out evendo I know, people cant get my point
Also, to ask for prayers from everyone, to pray for my strength to endure this :'(
Seriously I need prayers from everyone :'(
Im just a weak human that may broke anytime, so please pray for me.. :'(

Pray that Allah will give me the best answer and solutions Aminn
and may my heart stay strong despite what's the outcome later Aminn
Pray that I'll continue my life as usual, as how strong I used to be Aminn
And pray that Allah will forgive me for everytime I lose hope and feel like dying Aminn

With that, I hope no one will ask wad actually happened
Instead, continue supporting me in any ways
Thank you, thank you jazakumullah for reading, understanding and not judging
Lastly, thank you for praying for me..
May Allah bless Aminn
May Allah ease Aminn