Friday, January 13, 2017

I want...you

I am tired of being strong๐Ÿ˜”

Currently, temp 37.5⁰C, runny nose, killing headache and worst, homesick.
This usually wouldn't come out from a so called positive strong Zalikha, but Allahu..here I am letting out the grief I held in me. Usually at this kind of time, mum would be by my side, taking care of every single thing I need, just to ensure I'm not in pain and at ease. Yes, I'm already used to taking care of myself since 18, I'm used to stay by my own. I get sick always. When would it ever be that I'm actually well pun kan.. And because of that, I hate to burden everyone around just because of my uncertain health. And I actually dislike the nagging that comes along with the care. Being sick is not my choice, do you really think I want to be this fragile? Allahu.. All I need right now is just mum's warm hug, soft brush on my head telling me that everything is gonna be alright InsyaAllah..

Allah, please make me strong..๐Ÿ˜ข

Tuesday, January 10, 2017

dot dot dot

Peer pressure

THIS TIME MEMANG PEER PRESSURE BETOLLLL!!
I KNOW I WILL REGRET WRITING THIS BUT PLEASE I JUST NEED A PLACE TO LET THINGS OUT!

Salam and Hi! Alhamdulillah we're now in 2017, more responsibility, more works, more pressure from everyone, age is increasing and welllllll heyyyyyyyyyyyy...I'M 24 YEARS OLD MASYAALLAH!

*literally screaming out my lungs MasyaAllah I'm 24 alreadyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy*

T_T

Yes I'm not ready for this, yes I'm still clueless of how a 24 years old little lady should be, and yes I'M SO STRESSED OUT!
A friend is sending her boy to school already this year, a junior got married, a senior is conceiving and is awaiting for a baby, another friend is celebrating their anniversary, another one is posting the pictures of her child everyDAY, little cuzzy is getting married this march..and today I received a news from my close friend AND SHE IS GETTING ENGAGED THIS FEBRUARY INSYAALLAH!

AND I'M STILL HERE HAHAHA BLOGGING THIS THING ALL BY MY OWN HAHAHA STILL CONFUSED ON WHAT'S THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN PNEUMONIA AND BRONCHIOLITIS!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

OK HAHAHAHAHA..,I'M COOL, I'M HAPPY FOR HER AND IT'S OKAY I'M OK ALREADY ALHAMDULILLAH  HAHA

KBYE.
Signing off to finish my assignment huhu.. Another 2 years and a half to end this InsyaAllah so let's stay strong Zalikha, Allah has a better plan for you!

Wednesday, January 4, 2017

That night

She couldn't sleep well last night.

And all she had been thinking about was...you. She missed you a lot that she couldn't find a way to convey it to you. So much that she couldn't think how it would be if it's not you? How would she feels if you're gone? And all those worries played in her mind all night long.. at one point she wished she had the courage to call you last night, she begged herself so many times, to tell you how much she missed you, how much she wished to be right by your side and how scared she is to lose you.

Tired of rolling from side to side, she woke up, performed her ablution to face The One and The Almighty, to ease her worries. She cried in her prayer, confessing her longing for you, knowing that it's only Him who could ease her and grand her the tranquility she's looking for. She then fall asleep while her fingers wiping off the tears that wouldn't stop flowing from her eyes.

That night she realised, she never expect that she would and she will miss and long for a person that much, and that person is you..